Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Can't Sleep? Take It as a Sign.

I am awake at 4:15AM this morning, not by my choice mind you, but for some other greater reason. I am not entirely sure why that is but I do know there is one. And it is likely a good one. I have a lot going on right now and my stress is at an all time high. Good stress, but stress none-the-less.

I used to fight these periods of my life. I would toss and turn throughout the night and be miserable the next day. I would let whatever was worrying me dominate my thoughts and, at times, add to my fears. Those nights tended to be horrible and never accomplished anything but adding to my stress and making me look and feel like proverbial dog dootie the next day.

So I stopped.

I stopped letting my brain play the game. I stopped letting my mind play tricks on me. Stopped being so self-absorbed. I stopped allowing myself to be miserable.

I did start listening.

Listening to my body which was telling me...."Hey dummy, there is work to do." Listening to my mind which was saying, "Help me solve this problem that you have been too busy to notice." Listening to those outer forces that were trying to say, "Get off your sorry ass and go tackle something that needs to be tackled!"

It's those late nights and early mornings that I found clarity. It's in mornings like this that I found some answer to a question I have been longing to answer. It's times like this that something other than myself is trying to get my attention and rather than fight it, it is a whole heck of a lot easier to get up and go pay attention.

So maybe if you can't sleep there is a reason for it. Maybe, like me, you need to quit fighting it so hard and just get up and go see what there is to see.

Oh and for me...this morning I truly believe my sudden strike of insomnia was so that I could see the seeds of my next great presentation had not only sprouted but were ready to be harvested. Apparently this crop of creativity can only be harvested in the middle of the fricken night. Oh well, I am not complaining....not much anyway.

Maybe I will go for a run now.

Ripple On!!!



Lorie said...

Boy have I been there!!!

- Lorie

Carlon Haas said...

I totally get where you're coming from. A few weeks ago, I was having a bad day adn couldn't sleep. So, I figured I would do something since I wasn't sleeping anyway.

I ended up doing more work in 2 hours than I had done all day.

I say accepting the way things are instead on fighting them can have enormous benefits at times.